Momentary~

Time is clicking fast without any realization. Soon i m becomin a 23 yr old bitch sitting in a couch nothing much done for all tis while. Sometimes how i wish to stop d clock frm clickin but stil its a dream tat can never happen! when young, we owes dream to grow up fast but whn ur age number have reach 2 in da front of ur age, u jz wish ur age number wil remain 1 infront of ur age. Exam is around da corner...n being in uni life 4 3 yrs i have never enjoy or suffer frm hectic moment but tis semester i m relli tired. I never knw i have choose 4 damn subject with so much much assignt hanging thr.

Getting a yr older is nth to celebrate but it is sth to think back hw much u hv done n gone tru. Nth much but jz bein an ass hangin around and puffin da hell out of muh lung here everyday. Of cos studyin is sth to enjoy but nt at tis moment with so much dropping back thr. All i need to do is go forward to strive it back at least a lil bit of way 2 mend my wrongs. Nth was achieve but lots of mistake has done. Sometimes tellin ourself tat mistake is to make us grow but to be quietly think of it is jz some xcuse given to ourself. Perfectism isnt wat i owes wanted but being jz a normal being with some small prinsip is wat i want, however i have broke my own prinsip last yr.

In a glimpse, 2007 soon is comin 2 an end but sometimes wat have happen do haunt me once in a while. Being sensitive about certain issue cant blame myself cos of fearing too much i will go back 2 d circle le. Sometimes thinkin of wat our frens have said o related about wat i have done i jz feel d guiltiness growin inside again. No nitemares about it anymore but every move n step or even evry thought have cross my mind is so carefuly examined n make use of it becos of fearing to make a wrong move or thought again. It has been indirectly affecting me and i m relli tired of it dy but however moving on is still a need....

To think back lying others is jz abundantly painful than being lied~

However, 2molo will be a better day rite? every1 wish me luck 4 my exam yah! hehe! damn~i relli need luck n confidence back to myself! :S

Boring....~

I never have the time to talk shit in here nowdays, wat else final is so near to my eyeball which it is goonnna be like a spear tryin to poke my eyes! darn! anyway, recently i din have much sleep due to a sudden interest influence by 'Niang' - ya online games! damn! n it is only MSN games! gosh! thinkin back 2 refresh my mind for some games i have played before. I m jz not a good gamer.....n i m owes losing it! shit! haihhh` another research report is due on this friday and i have not start a word yet! whn do they wanna start n wtf is wrong....first ass oledi matai liaw ahhhhhhhh! shiat man! ok ok....i m being vulgarish here.....i wanna blog sth but thgs jz dun get into my mind to spit it out here....


When life is so simple n thr r none cliff for u to climb on n to go down fo and tis end up a person like me who wanna blog but nth to blog! wat a boring donkey ass i m here.....duh! anyway i mite jz stop my bullshit here...n have a look at my ass....n hopefully tis ass wont get any red mark on it again.... damn!

ME&HIM

Love in d air or Love out of air?

hahahahahaha! err...its been so long i end up like an old couple with him? hmm! i need some heart beating moment at least rite? hehehe! tokin bout heart beat i remembered having a conversation wit Niang about "does i feel heart poundin on my chest when i m wit Ed?" Hmm, i guess now i can give her an answer! Yea! i do feel or it wasnt?! The moment he reach airport, gosh i feel so anxious n i m not sure its a heart beating moment i m experiencin at tat time but jz the rush of blood in my heart nerve is so in speed. Or is it 2mths of not seeing him and having him not around me jz give me a pound in d chest 4 the hell sake of after 2 mths seeing him! hahaha! it was gr8 to have him back here of cos n i got so much to tell him of wat has happen here in tat 2 mths but however thr is thgs left unsaid.

The moment of updating the news n stuff happen on me n here....jz dun interest him at all! mayb thgs jz gone running on my mind now....i dunno wat but i do not have d time or do not have d mood to ask wats happening. He seems normal bt jz lost the taste of hearing my shit n oso lose the feel of me being an annoying ass in front of him. I dun feel hurt but jz another changing stage has occur in him. I tot i will change as well but seems like I need to be more mature in tis relationship. Thr is no more kiddie kiddie attitude hanging between us lor....n thr is no lovey dovey talk here as well....but of cos he stil treat me as usual lah! is tis wat i wan? do i feel sth lost? yes i gueess.....if not i wont be typin tis shit out! damn it! hmm! complicated....human has too many to learn. haihhh! sometimes u jz hope the time wil stop clicking or u jz hope tat thr is nth to learn but jz maintaining it till both ur leg r step in the box! oOps!

Beautiful and Ugly

"People say it would be terrible if we made all girls pretty. I think it would be great".

James Watson, American Biologist, in NewScientist.com

Sometimes being beautiful or pretty is satisfying and those who are in this category has the most attention if to compare with the normal and ugly ones. They are the one who are actually being ignore and also as a joke for the beautiful ones. Eventually due to this fact those ugly ones are facing at their daily life, they are those who tends to change their genome to turn ugly into beautiful women to remove the sufferings linked of ugliness for them. Do you think it is a good way to handle this fact?

Though being beautiful is a gift of God but being ugly does not mean to be dump-a-side by God or the society. It's born to be so why not accept and appreciate what we have. Sometimes life is just so balance or can we jz call it fair and square? hm! There are rich and poor people all around the world so there are also ugly and beautiful people but sometimes to have a clear view to look at those contrast, we actually can see most rich people are not beautiful and good looking but the beautiful ones are not that rich. Do not mentioned those artists or actors/actresses as we never know what life they are going tru behind the stage or the lens, right? So, which to choose if it is for you? To be natural beauty or to be natural ugly and born in a golden lock or in future to get ur own golden lock?

Life is jz so unpredictable and there lots of unexpected happenings and moments coming towards us so why not live life for the moment.

Which to choose if u? To live life for the moment or live life to the fullest?