The Boyfriend Questions and Answers

Q: Boyfriend, what do you like about me?

A: I don like anything about you.

Q: Huh? Not even a thing about me>?

A: Nope!

Q: But, why? (i m so mad now!!!)

A: Because I love you not like you! sha sha de...

*fainted* sometimes the boyfren just can give me a nerve and then make me feel so warm....

He is such a charm sometimes...darn it!

So continue....

Q: Orite, then what u love about me?

A: Love you lor..

Q: thr must be sth u love about me rite?

A: If i m able 2 xplain what I love about you then it is not love la dear....
That is LIKE already! haiyo....

*fainted again*

Orchard flooded!

It was shocking when I first step out from the borders underpass wanting to go over Liat Towers. We saw so many ppl and oso huge pipes and I even told Cherry Jie that they r pumping shit out~ but when we reach starbucks it really shocked d hell outta me that it was actually flooding! Catch that video uploaded and we r on TV. ahahahhaa...so overwhelmed bout it!

Still striving my drama and online searching for people's blog. While searching, I realised a lot of the bloggers I read has already shut down their blog spot! Its saddening and certain bloggers has blocked their website.

Was it blogging a trend? Like now everyone is mad about FB and maybe ppl tends to share their thoughts at FB than blogging cos blogging takes a lot of time to think then type...

Well, I have stop blogging due to my internet accessing problem and oso certain personal problem happens last yr.

It was a long long and sad sad story but everythg has gone truu dy....

I hope I have a good day to blurt it all out here but thr is so much to be updated....

When will I go for that numbers.....

Fantastic! Overwhelmed!

I couldnt believe about the numbers they givin me when I received the call (maybe I m still on my sleeping mode) so I make a double confirmation with them again and yes its tat number that have been clingin on my mind.

I was so happy and I have imagine of those coming numbers and I cant wait to work. I tot i will be starting on 1st of July but till yesterday the HR told me they are applying SP or EP for me and it will take bout a mth....*sigh* so I may nt start work at d first week of July! Haihh....but anyway hopefully d govt approve my application cos if not my signed offer letter will be lapse by then.

I am tired of resting already cos I gt nth to and I tot of goin home 2 c dad n mum but d thg is pulling me down is I do not like d feeling when I m leaving them cos it has been 4 times dy, they still drain the airport whenever I need 2 depart. So, hw to pass my freakin days? I wanna shop for clothes some more but i dun see anythg tat suit me.

Maybe spending some time to relax and reflect bout certain things for this sienness days...

I have been reflecting about the past and the people who have hurt me. And I am also seeking for an answer for those questions. I hate having doubts in mind and unable to get any answers.

Does she feel good aft all she have done between us? I wonder tat...

Does she feel like talking to me or even miss this friend me?

I m happy wit d new job I found but she has been clingin on my mind which makes my day sad and mad. I am so looking forward to work wit my new company but due to d procedures applyin S-pass for me takes time.

So atm, i gt nothin to do but spend my times online n sleeping and also watching my dramas....siensation on the mode.....

FRIENDS FOR WHAT€?

I was so happily back to home for CNY. It was my 1st time to go back home for CNY from Singapore. Happily to be home just to celebrate with family and good friends. I tend to have my wish come true whereas I am able to get CNY clothes for bothe parents and also to financially support parents for CNY goods and decor. Mum dad was so happy and I do not mind spending 1 or 2 k for them just for the occassions as long they feel they had actually brought us up with responsibility. I know that I m still unable to fully financially support them and they stil have to go on wit their biz to earn their daily usage. But one day I want them to not work and let me have the full support for them and I do not want it 10 yrs later but give me another 1yr plus and hopefully I can make it.

Talking bout good frens, well this yr I have a total turn off from them or shud I say from her where I have always put her as my priority among the 3. I knew from b4 till tat day I was never her priority but instead was her clown for 9yrs? I lost count of the yr we have known but it does not matter anymore....or does it matter? Yes, I do question myself tat sometimes. And I even have the urge to make the first step again to gain back this relationship. Wat has been pulling me off from the urge? Total DISAPPOINTMENT!

On the 3rd day of CNY 2010 we have gone with our plan to go for pubbing at the new pub PAVILLION. Yesh, our forlong gathering for 4 of us and yes tis yr is diff dy cos me bro is out of da picture and hw i end up broken with her is mostly connected to my bro n her story as well. I knw their break-ups was shocking at tat time and I knw thr r wrongs at me bro side but to think back its not all his fault actually. Orite back to the story, 3rd day of Cny we were happily dranking our booze n yet I do not know wat strike her to blurt out tat questions which is "When do you think you can **** d *****? Wow tat question hit me but still giving faces I tend to smile and told her nicely (as usual) - we r still celebrating the new yr so y not put tat aside (chinese *pantang*) but being nice isnt the rite way to handle her so yet another question shoot out which really shocked the hell outta my life - "i try contact him bt cant, so every mth do u give ur mum? if yes then u treated it tat u *** for them?" I was so shocked till I cant believe wat I m hearing and it makes me so confuse till I have a second thinking tat my parents and me owe her instead of my bro.? wtf! NO! we din owe her any money! we did not! She shud be so ashame to ask for d money aft breaking up! It was like so so so insane. So back to it, I did not get pissed but I am inside so as usual i Just told her not the rite time and it is not my parents responsibility. So, i ignored her n of cos she do back off.

Isnt it crazy? I was shocked! Anyway, pppl say do not judge the book by its cover but they also saying unless u knw them for a period but I FUCKING KNOW HER FOR ALMOST A DECADE and I am so useless till I saw this chapter of her esp the happenings on the 8th day of CNY which I do not know hw to response to the matter.....

However, it has been past for 5 mths dy n yet the thg is still playing on my mind and I know I really care for this friend but she reALly HURTS me so deeply .....

My 1st JOB at the LION CITY

Now @ Chamek the boyfriend home. Usually nothing to do here but one thg best about here is d food. So, everytime I m back here I will just gain weight cos from their dim sum to noodles are overwhelming.

The boyfriend says that i m getting fatter n fatter but anyway I dun care cos being able to stay alive to eat is prosperity for me. When i first came n started working at Zara really kills me. During our probation period we have to go thru some CDP which is to test ur knowledge about ur job scopes and at that time everyday is a STRESS for me. I am almost gone into depression due to miss my home and also the boyfren being not so responsibility for my secure at that time. He had forgotten to pick me up from work few times and my off duty time is like late midnite so it really pissed me off tat time until once I got so mad about it till I let him know how mad am I. At that time, I really feel tat I am such a fool to stay away from home to get all these shiat at my life but becos of the salary I tend to be patience. Anyhow, from tat xperience and scolding of so many many harsh words till the extend of breaking up with him did get him awake of what is his problem. From then, he do not dare to forget me. So, at least i feel better.

Zara was my first job and at first my thought of getting in Zara was jz a stepping stone for me to get a better job at the lion city and without notice plus my ego I has been worked for Zara about a yr. If it wasnt for the lady manager I wouldnt have stayed so long thr. She tested my abilities and my patience which I dun really like ppl to challenge that 2 points in my life so I wanna show her my abilities to her that no matter hw she challenge me or give me hardship I am able to cope and handle. Having to work thr is not d problem of d job scopes but the stress receiving from the superiors are crazy and at anytime anywhr u will be sabo by the superior which u feel like being slap at the face for no reason and yet u get scolding by the superior superior's again. The feeling can be describe as SUCKS! At first, i tot it was my own problem who cant stand the stress because is actually my first retail job until I met a girl thr who has been in retail field for 9 yrs and she told me other retail brand are not like tat for her xperience till she come Zara she felt like a "dog" sometimes.

So, from thr I knew I am nt d one having d problem but the ppl thr has some sort of making a fuss with newbies. It kills me at that time and immediately within 2 mths I lost 8kgs. There is so much to blabber about working thr and I hope to say it out loud here.....so to be continued....

Life @ here

The day i step into the lion city - my life circle has change and it was a total change from the starting point to an end point. I couldnt rem hw it happens cos it came like a lightning and blow off like a wind.

I miss d ol' days hanging around with tat bunch of chix and of cos sometimes i do think of "him" but I have choose to end it because I do not want to waste both our times. We seems to be able live without each other. There was not a "miss" feeling at all for either of us. It hurts when the day we officially broke off and maybe this is because of our 5 yrs relationship. Its an adaptation dy and some responsibility involve but thr is no love involve for him and me dy so i choose to be the bad person to spoke out. Its been a yr already and I do thought of him sometimes but I believe that he have someone else dy and I really wish him to be successful in his career which is so important for him. We have a total diff perceptions for life so it ended our relationship jz like tat.

The next thg is I have a total loss of my kch frens dy. It hurts me when it happens and I miss her and them as well but the things she have done to me n my family is really unacceptable for me. I feel that i m being used and also being framed for no reason. It cannot be my problem so no matter how much I miss her I wouldnt lay low this time cos if i make the first step I really lost all my pride dy and I have lost so much pride to her for this freaking 8 yrs. So, I wish her to have a happy life and if one day I found out it was all a lie all i can say is she gave me a blast at my face by telling me how foolish I am.

Thats all I can say....due to her actions I totally lose faith on that bunch of chix. They have let me see that frens isnt about helping each other but is using each other whereas I tot I can accept that but in d end I pull out my white flag and give up. I choose to have a fren that do not compare with me cos I believe everyone is equal so I seems to have given up all those yrs happiness and also unhappy situations.

If you ask me, am I happy now?

The answer is YES. At first, I am not so happy here due to my working situation but from there I learn a lot of people's faces and heart and also I found a real heart thr whereas she is both beautiful in inside and outside. She is just like an angel for me. She was my spirit to go for work everyday and I did not predicted that we both resigned together which was so surprised to everyone and myself. At first I fear that I would not get a job or a job with a higher salary but I still make a bet on it. And I only bet on one job application and it just hit me with a WIN prize. Yesterday when I received that call from the company HR I was so shocked with the packages they gave me. I can start all over again and learn new things again. Life was all about challenging here which I enjoy the challenge cos I am able to know my abilities.

The boyfriend has actually been so nice to me for a yr. He has no temper for me but just a bit of "ngam cham" le. He makes me feel so appreciated and he is the type that I enjoy to be with. He can do all the chores for me and I can just go home and sleep due to my tiring job. Sometimes I feel so lucky to know him but sometimes I fear of karma. So, i guess when a person is living so happily they tend to think aside tat maybe this is just for a time being and not forever. But I believe any ups and down hit me I am able to overcome it cos I have gone tru worst time of my yr dy and me and family ever to climb up to the moutain again to stand straight.

It has been a long long while I did not update anything here. From my final sem till nw I din realise times goes by so fast and here I am at the lion city for a yr dy and I have been independent for a yr. It din get me to adapt at this situation at all coz stil everyday I have my daily basis reported to my parents. I have been working for fucking 11 mths at Z*** and it was a nightmare for me but d difference is I learn a lot esp the people thr and I get to know more about the living lifestyle here. It was a gr8 experience for me due to the hardship and I never doubt my ability of surviving tru it.

The most gr8 thing is I am able to know a gr8 fren and from her i learn a few thgs and can be said at tat time going to work she is d only thg to make me go work without any hesitation...sigh.

nyway, tis is d start of my blogging again.....to be continues.....