NIC ASSIST OR PALL MALL ASSIST???

A NicAssist to assist me to stop the urge of smoking. Yesh, sophia bought it for me to QUIT my 9 yrs addiction n companion. All of a sudden really makes me n give me an urge to throw this habit is really hard for me. I do have this keen to quit since one of my aunt have cancer but not becos of ciggy but for living in a healthy lifestyle for her 43 yrs of life she got tat sickness. IT bang me on d face thinking that life is so fragile, it hit me on muh nerve saying that no matter how healthy u r but if u r destined to have a short life no matter how healthy ur lifestyle is there will be a wound coming to u. At first i thought I shud feel more keen to smoke more cos someone so healthy still will have that kind of illness instead it makes me thought of quitting it. I thought of quitting at tht time but ppl jz tell me - "sharon impossible one lar". ya i agree tat its impossible for me. Its so incurable for me n till then I thought wat for quit le since I dun even have d guts to throw a stick wat else a pack of my ciggies. But now, I got this NICassist by my side n it keeps on reminding me u have to quit since thr is a chance for me to stop my urge but d devil beside me saying no used one lah the nicotine gum......

however i tried d 1st piece of the nicotine gum tat day. The feeling of chewing 1 gum started to take my whole system down cos its makes u taste d real nicotine smell n taste in ur mouth really makes me sick but the gum can really helps u to feel the urge of nicotine at ur throat but cant help u 2 stop the urge of inhaling the ciggy part. I m so fear of takin the gum is a waste for me cos i can stop the urge at my throat but not my mouth part but howevr i will give it a try. I need time with my mentality part cos letting off a habit is not ezy. Quitting smoking is jz like turning a new leaf. I m touched becos of telling me to quit but not in saying but in action so now i m so confused bout shud i have an action for those who encourage me to see that I can do it? if i failed what will they think? Confusion came across. I look so independent in outer layer but i m so dependent inside of me....i depend to much on drugs like nicotine but tat ease me cos at least i m not so depending on some other shit. Sometimes to think back i m so foolish to take the habit down inside me but it all has turn into porridge n thr is no time to look back but jz need time to cure myself in future. Give me sometime k....I need time to reduce it but honestly yesterday i feel like throwing the ciggy dy but i do not have the guts. So, I hope tis NiC assIst wont disappoint me myself n the one I love who encourage me....Thanks bro and galssssss! :)) I will add oil to quit it k....:)) Love ya all lotzaaa....

I have to throw one away.......:( n i knw i shud throw which one but for the mean time the left one keep first cos mayb in need...oops:P ehehhehee....