Lalala..

How n why do I start blogging? Before i start blogging I have been thinking of having a blog to write down some piece of my mind but i never make an effort to do it as I m such a lazyy ass. I love to read ppls blog n some blog r so good n interesting (own perceptionlah!) especially someone u know but dun really know. I m very busybody so tats y i stalk others blog n read bout their ups n down n wat happening is goin on around them tho' i dunno them. U can jz says tat i m so "pat po o like to jaga tepi kain org lah"

hehee...Okay, back to my topic. why i start it? I suppose its jz a personal need of letting out my feelin towards any stuff like my dislike, like, happy, sad, point of view for sth n it goes lalalala.... o its jz becos my life is so boring till i dunno wat activity i shud do bt jz start to write sth. But seems my life is so boring i actually got nothg to write so it really make me start bloggin is whn i have problem of expressing my feeling to fren so i start to blog n hopefully they can read wat i m goin tru o feelin of certain stuff.. ya i knw i m being a silly to get frens attention tru here but i have no other way to go cos i m d type tat i cant xpress everythg out to ppl while face to face. I dun like to hurt a relationship o friendship n oso sometimes i dun really wana show who i m n tis is my darn weakness as i m afraid of wat others think bout me. Tho they r still alot of hidden stuff inside me i din blog about but i have told my closest fren liaw lah...hehe! honestly saying Jass n phia after tellin u guys bout my stupid stuff hidden for so long inside my heart i felt so relief and felt another closeness to u guys. Sorry for hiding n i have no motives of hiding but jz a point tat its my personal thg which is not really gud to tell around. hehehe... but however its all over! hehe...so sometimes to think back bout covering is not a good choice so i choose to says out my stuff here loh! another thg is my family affair which i wanna complaint so much bout it but of cos i cant everyday tell my fren bout my family affair so i jz type it out to feel more better n mayb i can curse them here gua...wahahhaa! guess tis is all why i have started a blog n i do get u guys to knw wat i m feelin n thinkin of n thanx for being concern n makin a effort to view it.

So i guess my blog is not for so many to read but jz my fren to read n let them knw wat is goin on inside me! ps: Jass, of cos i will try my damn best to be a direct person huh! hahahaha....its hard u knw! I can accept someone very direct but its still hard 4 me to accept muhself to be so direct. Ya, u r right i spend most of my time to understand others but i never really try to take a break to understand myself. hehe! tell u tat i dun like to play guessing o being mystery game wit other but seems like i m oso one of those rite. I try to change n thanks for lettin me knw who i m sometimes! kekee... i guess tis article is not sayin bout why i start bloggin but oso a confession of thoughs n "kan so" to a fren tat i have been walkin tru for tis 2 yr n i do appreciate it eeya..i better stop here b4 my mum wakes up to "tiaw" me again!

HAPPY HOLIDAY TO ME!

Yea!!!! at last holiday liaww....in few weeks time i guess i m gonna face another nitemare again which is my result! darn.....hehehee...lazy to write ahhhhh.....sienn! go take my dinner then relax wit my drama series liaw. do di do..!

Sienzz...

Jz watch a movie which was quite an old movie named "Unforgetable" starred by Cecilia Chung n Lau Ching Wan. Few ppl have told me its a nice movie o can say tat its a very touching movie but aft watching is not tat much i have expected. However, its stil ok lah n i guess the most touching part is whn they wanna send off the lil boy to an orphanage which seems so kolien lah cos d boy so cute. Anyway, the movie name shud name it as forgetable cos at last they make it out to forget their lost one n start a new life with the present one though.. hehe...anyway guess tats wat i get for tat movie.

Darn i shud be studyin-haha- but study mode have run out of batt i guess...sheesh! I cant wait to finish damn last paper then can watch TRANSFORMER n FANTASTIC FOUR! damnnn ittt......so soiiii one....suppose already told Ed to go watch premier for TRansFORmer eh but soi soi final exam mth occurs. cilaka! everythg owes not in d rite way whn plan...n say wan go KK oso tak ....hrmph! shiat lahhh....n seems like my RWMF oso not jadi liaw as no kaki wanna go le. Sheesh n d ticket too xpensive lahhh...wth! whn i wan go the price go so high. hmm! hopefully Sophia can come back lah n c tat day got ticket o not. darn! eeeyaaa.....life so boring ah owes like tat! Damn bro, get to watch Emil Chow concert n i m stuck hereeee damn...... haihhh...better study lahhh..sienz!

Crooksssss.....i wanna k*ll u ppl ah!!!!

Din really sleep well lastnite. wtf is wrong wit those thief man!!!! Last week of today(16/06/07) around 10 sth in da morning happen a robbery case at my neighbourhood. The most scary thg to think back is my neighbour (Nigerian-Intian) house got broke! shiat man! early in the morning n those crooks r so daring till they parked their f**king silver coloured kancil inside d house parkin space n 'kiaw' the door! Those crook too a few laptops, psp games, camera n their home theatre gua. Really damn daring....cos b4 they broke their house on friday nite they broke their kelisa window n took away all their cd's n as well 'kiaw' away their car player.

For god sake! at tat last saturday morning so chun i was driving Sophia's parent to airport. Can i say i m lucky o soi cos if i m home i mite have heard noises n i call d police. Sigh....my opposite neighbour saw it oso so stupiak one, dunno how to call for help...sheesh! mayb some ppl r jz selfish gua. hmm!

Actually tis robber case is not d first time happen in my neighbourhood anymore. Edmund's car was broke twice oso liaw n lots of shoes was been stolen from othr neighbours. Whn will all these f**king crook will stop n come on lah police force shud stringently enforced their ronda!!!! darn! all these crooks have oso turn me into insomnia...everytime i hear dog bark o car sound then automatically will wake up liaw...sien ahh!!! Tats wat happen last niteee....suddenly got 2 ppl walking around n its 3 in da morning! gosh! it freak the hell out of us again cos they got parang! damn! then v dun bother to call d police liaw gua cos those crook no car so whn d peronda police come they oso jump to d sua pa n ran off liaw....so all d neighbours ring their alarm. so in d end guess nth happen n i slept bout 5 in da morning jz becos of those crime *STAR* firrkkkk!!!

Wanna get some sleep but b4 tat have to go brunch with lo po zai liaw! hehehe....for a yr at last can sseeee her liaw...

PS: Be alert of silver colored kancil n oso white proton saga (tinted green), n oso silver waja!!!!!!!!

When Man Woman quarrels over a small thg?

OKay found tis pic at my pic folder n cant rem whr i have downloaded it! kinda meaningful if the topic of tis pic is 'WHEN MAN WOMAN QUARREL OVER A SMALL THG'- so most couples try to look back wat u o they o we have quarrel wit our spouse over lil stuff n try to make a laugh about it when talked o thought back of it...so cheerz owes...no thing is n no one is perfect. But sometimes couples wil quarrel over small thg is mayb the exist of love n whn love exist then thr will be owes 1 of them be the caring one n 1 will be d taking for granted ones.

So, which one r u? Care o d takin for granted one????:D

Thankz!

Yes....1st paper gonee.....1 more week i'm gonna have my breakk again! sigh! thinkin of holiday is not ttat songsss cos i think i have enuff holiday last sem....sienz...but anyway todayyy quite tiring but oklahhh Luckily still can ans the damn law paper....n got enuff time...thinking of this exam makes me thought of thgs happen at my previous sem..n i really appreciate now n i try my fucking best to not be distracted by my family affair n oso others emotional affair loh. But 1 thg ahhh i wanna Thanks for d maggi ya Jass..hehe!

Came home log in here i saw sth so warm n tat is my Sian have wrote a comment for me n i feel so touched now...so i wanna say Thanks sian for wat u have said here....its no one fault actually all tis happen to me but those "shi fei ppl" n oso some is my own fault as well n i m tryin all my very besttt to maintain my emo tis whole half yr.....n i know if u r here u will comfort n listen to my mumbles. Thanks for concerning lo po zaiiii! mUahs mUahs wifeeyyyyy!

Besides tat i guess i wanna thanks my another gal fren as welll.....which is Jass...mayb without knowing u i mite have a more serious depression stage to pass truuu last yr as my close fren Sian left kch to UK...but with u owes yam cha wit me n let me side track away from my prob which is by joining ur familyyy occassion like ur bro`s weddin lah, ur niece comin to tis world lah n oso for indirectly suggesting a trip. Thanks again ya! U have make me learn to say thgs more directly ,tho` i m not tat success yet but tryin my very best so i wont have "hidden" emotion, feelings inside me, n sorry for last mth misunderstandingnas mayb of my emo have overcome me o of a sudden at tat mth....period lai ba....hahaha....k lahh thanks a lot ya niang..!

All of a sudden wanna thanks tis 2 gal fren of mine. 1 for being faraway but stay to to concern me n 1 by my side to advice n listen to me tho its quite late for her to hear as all those thgs have bein a history then i balu tell u..ehehe but beingg pull away fromm those probs is a help for me already....mUahs mUahs lahhhh...k! hehe! i oso know that besides them they r oso Norman my maniac fren who have been lendin me ashoulder to cry on tho most of his comfort words dun really help me n oso Edmund to help meee whn i m at d border of a cliff whr i feel like jumping off tat time.....Thanks to u all! u guys alwaysssss.....mUahs!

What Old ones owes rantz n rumbles about?

I'll tell u one thing, if things keep going on the way they are, its going to be imposibble to buy a week's groceries for rm20.

Have u seen the new car coming out next year? It wont be long before rm10k will only buy a second hand one.

If ciggy keep going up in price, I m going to quit. rm7 is ridiculous.

When i first started driving who would have thought the gas would someday cost so much. Guess we better off leaving the car in the garage.

Kids today r impossible. Those duck tail hair cuts make it impossible to groomed. Next thg u know, boys will wearing their hair as long as the girls.

I m afraid to send my kids to the movie anymore. Eversince they let Clark Gable says "damn" in 'Gone with the wind,' it seems like nowadays movie has either "hell", "damn" or even "f*ck" in it.

I read the other day tat some scientist thinks it's possible to put a man in the moon by the end of the century.

Did u c whr some football player just signed a contract for rm75k a yr jz to play ball? It wouldn't be surprise me if someday they'll be making more than the president.

Marriage doesnt mean a thg anymore; those artist seems to be getting a divorced at the drop of a hat.

Thank God, I wouldnt live to tat day to c the day whn government takes half our income for taxes.

I sometimes wonder if we r electing d best ppl to govt.

No one can afford to be sick anymore; rm35 to visit a doc is 2 rich for my blood. If they think i`ll pay rm25 for a haircut, forget bout it!

-old ppl jz like 2 criticise bout future-

Blueesss Feeling...

Sigh! Talking about father`s day on d previous blog....whr shud i start to write wat i wanna writee!Well, today is my 4th day of no-talking with my mum again...ya its again! We both r always in cold war but tis yr can say its a lot better as we have been "ok" for d pass 7mths. Goshhh! 7mths no quarrel, no cold war n no crying for both me n mum is surprising- i really try my best to keep my mouth shut whenever i dun agree o watever thgs pop up between me n her but till tis monday....we were at first normally chattin bout others gossips until i mentioned bout my aunts (mums siblings) n i said tat i will not ever help them in any of their favor anymore...like sayin tat help oso boh-iung wat cos kenak blame when shit happens. everythg bout me loh...come on lahhhh aunts u ppl eat n drink more yrs than me but y so immatureeeeee???? o is it u ppl concept about me is all bad???? gosh! every kid have a growing stage n my mum too was having a hard time while me n my bro was goin tru our teens stage n she never blames others for influencing her own kids! but y u aunts r like tat? don`t u think its unfair for me n mum?

Mum love u aunts a lot n she owes try her best to fight u ppl right in front of my dad n me.....n in d end we ourselves ending quarreling with each othr. Sometimes i wonder do u aunts feel guilty for all these? Nah...i think u guys r jz one selfish ppl in d world who only careeee for ur own feelings n ur families. Sheesh! I know its normal for me to count my days of not talkin wit my mum...but with me not talking with her makes my dad have war with her as well. So sad tat everythg seems like back to d past....no talking in d house....a house jz not as much diff as mortuary....:(

Happy Father's Day

Yesterday was father’s day. So wat u guys buy for ur dad?> well, mine i din even mentioned about it. Feel so bad bout it as last mth mother’s day i make a cheese cake for her but dad i totally 4get everythg. Sigh, mayb all tis while i tot dad is owes close to me i need not do anythg to make him happy as he will be happy when i m happy. Somemore my bro is not here n he din even called as well….wtf! Feel so unfillal lah!

I have bad relationship with mum so last mth i tot of making her smile n trying to tame her heart so not to treat me as her enemy i made her a cheese cake. Is it tis is becos when someone treat u nice then we take it 4 granted n whn some others dun really like u but we will put effort to make them accept us. Guess humans r just “fan jian”(mandarin) i dunno wat is in english. Sighh…feel so guilty o of a sudden but my dad dun even complain any word. But i guess he know my situation as i m jz a student wit no income n allowances as my mum is very strict to me n mostly is dad who give n my dear who give me money to spent so i think even buy anythg for dad oso still his money le. Hehe….but i did cook some dishes which he likes a lot one for him yesterday n i told him in future aft i graduate i will celebrate with him.

Just wanna say soorrryyy to dad from here n i knw he will understd but it js me feel so guilty….k lah i better stop hre…..jz wanna write down to keep track of wat i have doneSorry dad n love u always-Muahs!

Being Blame for Nothing..

Okayz….i suppose to be studying my damn marketing law, but all of a sudden i wanna write sthg! Went out for a drink with Jass around evening jz now n saw my aunt at hui sing. All of a sudden she appear in front of me wit her dotter n a feeling of strange occur in my heart. Mayb aft those blaming of me teaching her son to smoke o blaming me for not informing her bout her son start smoking. We used to be close n we used to be so much talking whenever we meet but today both of us see each other with awkwardness. Wat happen oh? hmm…ur son smoke oso my fault. Sometimes ah, when prob occurs really can c that opponent true face.

Sigh! For god sake lah, a smoker hangs out with a non-smoker then suddenly tat boy start smoking which i dunno when n all those shit dump on me then…sighhhh! y all shit turn to me le? m i tat bad in their heart? m i tat irresponsible in their mind? sigh! I owes help them…wat they tell me 2 do i will n wat they say bout me i let it go in just a flip of eye. Isnt all these enufff for u aunts? wtf! i had enuff lah! so shit ahhhh…n i dunno wtf i m writing about! damn it!My mum oso blame me for hanging out wit her son but come on lah when my cuzz bro wan a chat wit me can i say no? when he need some help o advice can i say no to him>? he is a young bro for me. Damn, forget bout it lah!

Though i tell every1 i dun care lah, watever shit lah but i still feel d pain inside n guess it wont turn back like before anymore. Sad sad me…

Hidden

I hide my tears behind a smile

so none can see my cries,

I hide my sorrow behind a smile

so none can feel my dissapointment,

I hide my anger behind a smile

so none can see my temper,

I hide my sadness behind a smile

so none can feel my not well-being emotions,

I hide my ego behind a smile

so none can see my consciousness,

I hide my tenderness behind a smile

so none can feel my emotional injury,

I hide every downside of me behind a smile

so none can know my true personality,

However, I hide all those feeling inside me

I can never hide my concerns feeling to people beside me

so everyone can see,feel and know whom I anxious at most...

(Hiding behind a smile in d darknesZ)

HIM Sagittarian & Me Scorpion

Love Compatibility of Scorpio with Sagittarius

You're easily attracted to, and inspired by, a Sagittarian's confidence and love of adventure. Chemistry may not be enough to make up for your fundamental differences, though. You follow your gut, while your Archer just shoots from the hip. You instinctively know if a plan is going to work or not, and your partner is likely to ignore your objections to follow an idea he or she is excited about. Your Sagittarius also avoids dealing with anything negative at all costs, which might be a problem for someone who needs to process every emotion - good or bad.

Gone..sleepless nite again

Doneeeeee.....1st sem of 2007 is comin to an end soon. N till then i wil have my darn long holiday again o i shud say i m gonna waste a 1 mth time again doin nth but sleep,eat,shit,be driver for him,be cooker for my 2 old ones and keep callin frens 2 yam cha wit me even they r workin o studyin. sheesh! Time just tick so fast til i cant even remember wat i have done all this while beside being an asshole being nosy here n thr n of cos not forgetting my daily routine which has not change till now n tat is eat........bla bla it goes on again....with the same shit.

Sigh! cant sleep againn...n tomolo is my last class of the semester then i will have my study week. So blank in my mind til i duno wat 2 think, duno wat 2 do, duno wat 2 write. Evrythg duno at tis hour. Sheesh....dun mind about duno tat n tis but i mind tat i dunno how to sleep! for god sake! Give me some rest.....darn! haiya...dunno wat to write lah! sienz ahhhh..blah blah blah~ hmmmm....but i guess i got bit of thing on my mind now n tat is a fren of mine -Sian- my share alots darlz fren is coming back in 3 more days, gosh i miss her so much, a lil bit of excited 2 c her...for a yr plus lorrr i din c her. hmph!


Errr ok, missing a fren n n n.....now i m stuck again...blank again. sheesh! better go 4 a ciggy to boost up my energy to start my drama series! sienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
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