Girls needs and wants& conversely I dun have it at all..-_-"

Okayz...here I m gonna list 10 thgs a typical normal girl, ladies or woman will have n will do. As those who knows me this is a female blogging here k n read on wat so diff bout me. B4 starting that list in d same time tat is those 10thgs I dun have...n do k. Wat a girl I m! This is jz mayb I have more manhood cells inside my body instead of more girlishness inside me o outside of me..wateva! :P~Ya, sometimes i do wonder I m a girl as I wore more like a boyish style, sit like guy, talk loudly like some hooligans (:P) n likes to use vulgar words all d time. Orite I aint no lesbo ya, I like male species k n I do have 2 bump of mountain in front of my chest in which I never have any intention to shrink it smaller like some man-wannabe n thr between my legs r flat in shape k..But I like Sammi Cheng's "pui ki tio" chest...(*winks*). Anyway, diff ppl have diff interest wat. Here goes the lists:

1. Pefectly ladies wardrobe filling with trendy clothes,pants,evening dresses or bla blah -it goes on in which i dun really knw wat d hell it is and adversely a girl like me who only have t-shirts,jeans, athletes shorts but of cos I do have skirts lah but its only d number of 3 in my wardrobe. N i have not own any evening dress yet.
2. Make-up kit! o lipstick...okay, I never buy any lipstick n I dun put make-up! but sometimes i do some eye-lining part n mascara-ing my darn short "atap-chu" eyelashes. Duh me~
3. Shoessss, heels which ladies r owes a-must-have diff type n colors of heels o shoes! Contrary I dun wear heels accept for my damn course presentation period o sometimes when I m down to some bar drinking...trying to dance with it. N for ur info i have only 2 heels sitting inside my shoe rack. Ya i m owes a slipper slave...:s
4. Hair make over- in which most girls will do...whenever thr is a new trend! Guess wat I m owes on my pony-tail n in which its owes in a mess no matter whr I go till last yr I was confront to cut it short with some bob-hairstyle which for me doesnt really looks like one. But they r some says I look better in short hair (still wondering I shud keep it back long again-urgh I miss ponytail) .
5. Handbags - gosh its ladies need! N for GOD sake I never carry any n oso I dun use wallet or purse n tat is y my notes is owes scrambled inside my pocket in which everytime i took it out it jz looks like "scrambled eggs". So u can imagine I dun even have a tissue pack wit me.
6. Accesories in which most gals would own a lot to match their beautiful worn-outs. Ya, I dun have any of those accept I wear a gold-necklace n an anklet n some rings which is gold too. But I m fancy in earrings as I got few piercings. :p
7. Hmm, wat else!? Perfume rite? to smell nice n attractive...n nah I dun really use it unless I m on some occassion.
8. Fashion Magazines - orite this I read most of d time but not trying to cope my style but jz to gain some new trend knowledge n oso to peep for new lease of handphones...ya some magz have those advertisement of handphones k.
9. Shopping - Urgh, I hate shoppings k unless I m gonna shop for handphones (do di do..) or sometimes jz shop for more xtra shirts n jeans lah.
10.Bitching - OoO! tis suits me, i do bitch a lot..wahahaha...bitching is good...so 1 point up i m a girl (duh!)
Okay I can only think of 10 thgs...n who can list out more for me about a girl must have. Oh ya I aint one LV fans or Gucci fans as well but I would like to own one Prada shoes one day:) hehe...n I more into Guess in which their tees only n their jeans nahhh..i prefer levi's more as it can make girls booty more bootylicious...hehee...

$525.00 (Oo!ELEGANT) $273(cOmfy)
Ya those r so so me! In which I aint have anythg sounds like a GIRL wat else to b a lady...sheesh! But I m comfy d way I m n howeva of cos I wanna get a reform 1 day....haha! *rolling my eyes*
(SEE THE DIFF - L-R ->JAsZ,mE,PhIa)
P.S: I do doubt when I was looking for a stomach to bore me out - did i run too fast till i lost my hood n birdy? wahahahahaha! stupid joke here..:P

Marriage a bliss or disaster?

What we young generation think about marriage? Sucks, nightmare, a dreadful road of commitment or a some think they cant live with each other for jz a period of time when their chemical romance is boiling to d highest temperature then in another few mths they r actually bored of each other?

Changes thr r already changes in our generation. If u ask our parent's generation thr will think marriage is an exciting and blissful union of two love birds. For us, its a total upside down....coz we see too much example n oso we determine more than our parents n v r all getting more selfish as well. This is how marriage can turn into a disaster.

Walking down the aisle - "ooOo,How sweet n how eager those lovebirds to live with each other"- but times goes by when thr r conflict, thr r unacceptable thgs happen between them n bits by bits it turns out BIG PROBLEM then nowadays ppl will jz say "fine,lets file for a divorce since we r not suitable for each other". Its too ezy....unlike our parents how much conflict, how many arguments they still try their f**king best to maintain becos of their children n oso becos they believe when thr is love nothing can stop them...

Nowadays LOVE dont really conquer all, we r living in realistic world n wat else a materialistic world as well. Unlike those fairy tales r told anymore. Some will say, "No money no marriage", "Different lifestyle then break-up", Communication problem then cannot be together coz bei-ngam", U cant give wat i want then i got rights to choose for someone who can give me". So many issues to go tru especially if go tru wit a person who is totally diff in attitude o background. Wat a couple need - Tolerance, understanding? Do we think we can do it? Ya, some can n most cant n tat is why so many divorcee nowadays? Wat else today's world thr r so many "miss-cue" marriage happening? esp teens? Getting married at a young age especially those with accidents situation is gonna go tru a bumpy road oh n oso lots of sacrifices lying ahead of d road to be sacrifice. If one o both r not ready to give up their leisure or freedom sacrifices then choose not to be bond yet. Marriage is sth like "it takes two to tango" or its a 2 person commitment n sacrifices. Its not all about walking down the aisle with beautiful gowns n smart tuxedo or is not a one nite stand feel of affectionate or the feeling of getting a diamond ring how many carat it is instead of commitment of taking care more lifes coming into the family like children n both sides parent chip in our lifee....

But somehow we still can see thr r couples who have a blissful marriage...so its not tat scary though if some of us maintain n plan well enuff...n one have to give n one taking it...TOLERANCE~important guaa...:)

.....unpredictable.....destiny.......fate?..?

Some of us might be out of cash sometimes o someone like me can say I m always out of cash! Well, the thgs is I cant complain much coz I m lot better than some others at the other side of the world rite. Yes, after reading Dude’s article -(go check it out at his website (http://ahjiau.blogspot.com) u r very right but life is owes imbalance most of d time right? Jz like we will owes says “nothing and no one is perfect” so same shitty thgs about being rich or in poverty. This is life cycle gua....
In our world, thr r ppl gripe about when we gonna get that prada shoes, o thr r ppl complaining about we need better job n pay to have a better living or a luxurious living lifestyle. But for sure ppl around us o we ourself never squawk a word about “whether we have food o water to eat n drink in d next minute instead of bitching about which pub beer o liquor is more xpensive o even can get crazy o mused if the govt increase alcohol price o ciggy price right? We will never thought bout thr r ppl in other side of d world dun even have a sip of water on their mouth n dun even have any clothes to cover their skeletal body n wat else shoes to wear? wat a pity? so sometimes when we r in some shit guess v need to take a look of those poor african kids ya...to remind how our life is so much better than them dy..
That article Dude have post makes me think of sthg small too...Ok, since I m owes out of cash so most of d times I cant afford to go to wat banquet lah o the bing but i dun mind sometimes to spend 10 bucks for a nice coffee at starbucks o coffeebean but once in awhile lah. so all I can is to have some coffee in a coffeshop is enuff. Ppl will think tat is de-grading urself o low class? Ya it might be but thr r jz diff ppl who have diff situation o diff interest?. Tat doesn’t mean we r not appropriate to be in d society rite? Recently, I went out for a drink with a fren n she met her x-classmate n tat xclassmate jz blurted out a question – "y u owes sit kopitiam one?" Is tat a hint of criticizing o being concern as a fren tat kopitiam for a gal is not good? If that guy thinks sitting at kopitiam can disgrace him – haha! He must be one of those person with a very high-class lifestyle. But sometimes how high profile u r, 1 day u will still sit in kopitiam one rite? Kolo mee oso at kopitiam lah o Laksa... So wats thr to ask someone tis kind of question le? Duh~
Being rich or poor however we r bought to this world so we still have to live on. No matter wat happen they r owes diff ppl in the world n if some cant cope up o some cant accept we have to take it in d end wat n all we can do is “ai pia” lorr….(Hey dude stop ur damn hokkien song lah, makes me addicted to it) . Ok, Mayb their grumbles about no nice clothes o shoes o handbags is their life – for them mayb is suffering dy. Diff people with diff situation bringing them to different complains in their life loh.. “bitter or sweet we still have to take along till d end of our road”

A fulfillment for myself since I drop hard~

Wonderful news wonderful time is jz wat I need nowadays! I need good news to numb off my bad moods! Ya I got 1 wonderful news n it jz gave me a dash of relief inside my mind n body! Damn it, n believe tat whn u have busted everythg in ur school stuff n oso ur life before, dun become insolvent, breakdown or languish urself but jz be strong n thrive harder n harder till u see something not perfect but at least a sufficient result for the time being n try to boost everythg up more higher in d coming days.

People jz needed another chance owes o jz a lil opportunity can help someone to stand up again. Thank you n thank you to those who dun judge me but gave me a chance to proof tat I still can manage it n Thank You Dear for not scolding d hell outta me previously but jz being supportive to me n control me if i get out of my way again.

Yesh yesh! being relief is such a good feeling but thr r thgs to settle more. Thr is one chinse saying I learn from my chinese educated frens which is translated to like tat ah "walk till d end of bridge, naturally we will know how to get a turn to another way" - haha sthg like tat lah! But however, no effort no gain lah!

Lastly, I would wanna congrat myselffffffffffffffffffffff! yesh yesh i can do it. No more drama o emo kills my ability plssss! tis is all i need to pass my damn journey. Thank Him for answering my prayer too! *pheWWwwWWww* I shud have done better on my law paper one ler buttt in othr way round I get a better mark wit my econ...damn itttt! So d xpect of d unexpect of my recent nitemares. However its over d red line so i shud feel glad ah! HEHEEHE!HEHEHEHE! :D
mY FeeliNg NOWWW!-->A SIGN OF SERENITY FOR ME

---->BEING PERKY! WAHAHAHA! ACT CUTE (STUPID ME BUT HAPPY SO ONCE IN A BLUE MOON LAH K ;)

Again n again...it jz goes onnnnnn

Hmm...a few day away from tis bloggy. Living in a state of pain in d heart tis few days becos of war wit me mum started again. So stupidly started it becos of others ppl stuff. Its all a lame thg to think back n the thought wat mum have said to me really send a spear pierce into my heart. But however I have told myself tats it, no matter how u be o wat u do its still d same. Guess we both have personality clashes all the time n thr is no cure, so silence is d best medicine for both of us. So tired of all tis drama drama o emo emo thg wit her, feel so grey about it as well but still i have to live on with life day by day in which makes me most unbreatheable is i have to face her with tis live on life. Feel so hectic, lots of dissapointment n lots of anger inside. I jz wanna break down n cry out loud but no no I cant cos it shud be normal for me oledi. Sigh! I cant keeep on grumbling to my frens wat i m goin tru, I cant keep on complaining bout me n mum affair to Ed cos its not a fresh o new thg anymore n i shud have been numb for all tis me n mum conflict. I m too till the way of speechless towards tis fighting all d time. None of us have wrong o right. All I can do is open an eye n close an eye n oso I have to swallow d whole grief and anger inside my stomach n keep thr till it rots inside me. I tried it hard tis few days but it makes me worse, it makes me so wanna cry d hell ouutttaa my lungs. I cant i cant! No i cant get back thrrr again...She is like tat! I have to take it tis way dy. I feel so depressed n i m so fear i will get into depression again. I need to be bz so I wont think bout ittttt..urghhh! Help me damn ittttt....

Wat a Laugh againn....

Hmmm! another laugh i wanna make...(sarcastism here)duh! sometimes ah thgs o life is jz so unpredictable n it can jz come so sudddeennn! Ya, I was at Jalan Song again n tiz time jz go thr for a glass of kopi peng ah~n another coincidence again, yup i met tat guy I mentioned b4 tis post. But tis time he is thr wit his wife but i m lazy to meet their eye so I was pretending not 2 c them but so soiiii they just sat not far from me n i was facing them...wahahaha! N guess wat, I sat thr for almost a hour n tat hubby of my fren relative ah din even take a ciggy to puff n drink tea some more! wat a joke man!
Feel so fake, feel so sarcastic, feel so silly for tat lil wife of his.... y wanna be like tat? I was thinking, does he feel like being choked by his wife? hmm! n if 1 day his wife found out he have been cheating on her? wat will she thinks??? mana mana tau cheat sth else oso got lahhh~hmm! wat a fool is d wife 4 being rigid of certain stuff n affect her hubby to do those thg at d back of her. n oso wat a fool for d hubby not to stand for himself of wat he likes n wat he dun like instead of trying to sneak at the back of his wife. Hm....y have to be so dead-set n y one have to be such a obedient pretender? Not tired mei? wat dun like n wat u like say it out n one have to accept if its not such a big deal though...instead of making both parties suffer in d end...

Wat a laugh....

Okay, same shitty doin recently which is aft picking Ed from work we went for supper at Jalan Song (yesh yesh i m gaining weight again) ok as me n my frens have cancelled our gathering for d whole week as we have been out so much n we r a bit over d border till we got complaints from our parent "Never a nite stay at home" - ya ya i m still lock up in my parent's fist. -_-duh!
Wat amused me was I saw someone at Jalan Song last nite n wat makes me feel like writing bout tat certain person. To think back its juz so quaint bout d whole picture.
Here it goes, tis person I saw was one of my fren's relative husband. This couple well was married 2yrs back i guess n the wife is a very beautiful lady n her husband a good looking man. Wat I knew was, this beautiful lady jz in her 20s is a very rigid person n esp towards her husband. A lady who is very inflexible bout ppl who smoke n drinking alcohols. So her choice of partner is a must be non-smoker n non-alcohol guy. So before they were married n after married she was so confirm she can forbid her husband not to do those thg which she dun likes. N i remembered thr was one time my fren told me her hubby is so obedience to her n very willingly not to be a bad egg (for d lady smoker o beer drinker is bad bad thg) like those guys outside.So, i guess she feel so proud she got a hubby who obeys her commands n restrictions. But too bad real too bad in which make me thinks human is good at making life's a joke.
Her hubby who has promise her so much of her restriction prinsip. This shows tat the man love his wife so much. But for me I think controlling some1 from doin those lil thg is quite a nuisanse n sometimes i do think promise is jz a saying but not an action. So i never believe in a person saying tat "Ok,I promise u...." then i will not xpect him/her to keep tat word especially man! Tats y i owes treat promise as nothing though...
So well I think this man is another one giving empty promises to his wife cos last nite I saw the guy drinking beer at d coffee shop n he himself was drinking n his fren beside him drank Tea c peng nia. N d most humorous part is err...he was smoking n he was using a chopstick to grab the ciggy stick n smoking it! farny guy here...kekekeke! He did it tis way mayb jz wanna keep d ciggy smell away from his finger. Wat a laugh! I keep on lookin at him until I guess he realised tat n mayb he tends to recognise me so he very pai-sehly put down his ciggy n dun even dare to take a puff until I went off gua...hahahaha! I feel so lame about it...gosh!
Well, wat I wanna say is life is jz a joke n as well as promise is oso a joke most of d time. Some ppl wanna stop certain ppl to do tat n this but in d end tat certain ppl will be doin tat n this at d back of that person. So sometimes we must learn wat to control n wat to let it be.... nothing is perfect as well as no one is perfect. We adults o we teens r jz like kids, the more those parent forbit their children not to tis n tat but in d end their children is doin it sneakily. So be more flexible to certain stuff o issue. The more u control o xpect then it will lead us to dissapointment in d end. If u really like tat person o if tat person is not a monster o someone who will not bring harmness to us than accept them as who they r.....:)

How we communicate can lead to conflict!?

Another post bout thoughts in relationships. Well, its just a thought of it as I myself sometimes is a problematic person when handling lovey stuff. Recently I have a fren who have broken relationship n a fren who is having some conflict in their relationship. I myself have been in a coming to 5 yrs relationship wit Edmund. To summarize bout me n him is our 1st 2 yrs r shitty as we almost quarrel everyday n tis mite becos of not understanding each other n communication break down as well. But recently we both r so far so good. We both have give each other spaces to breathe n oso we tend to understand each other but for future planning our boat is still buoyant in d midst of the sea "buoyant kin". Hehe! Mayb cos of 1 thg which we both knw n tat is confidential I guess. Keke! So we will handle it soon. As I would like to say bout conflict n communication prob - I would like to tell a dear friend of mine n of cos a reminder for myself too...

Dear Fren,
Poor communication can weaken bonds, occurs mistrust n even contempt. So here I will like to list a few thgs all of us tend to happen when we r in a relationship in which will destruct our relationship.

a) Avoiding Clash altogether
Instead of discussing building frustrations in a calm situation some of us just don wan to say anythg to their partner until all those frust r accumulate inside him/her lead them to explode then blurt it out all in an angry n oso hurtful way. This is because tat partner was trying to avoid arguments but who knws it usually causes more stresses for both parties, as emotion strains n eventually lead to a much bigger arguments.
b)Attempting to defend
When a partner complains, most of d time we r never willing to understand the opponent point of view. If we r defensive person we tend to defence watever they r tryin to say n tis could lead them to a road of stress which our partner feel tat they arent listened to. So unresolved conflicts continue to grow.
c)Over-reasononing from details/fact
When sth happens that they dont like o disagree, some of us will jz make sweeping generalizations like starting sentences with , "You always.." or "You never.." n oso bringing up pasts arguments to throw the discussion off-topic n stir more negativity between each other.
d)Always being right/correct!
Its damaging to decide the way u're seeing things is always right and DO NOT demand that ur partner see things the same way as urs (I owes do this lah but c wat kind of talkin skill u have to control d conflict) n oso dun take it as a personal attack if they disagree wit u. So, sometimes I learn to think tat 2 points of view can be true cos there is not always a right or a wrong.
e)Mind-Reading/Think tat u really understand him or her
Instead of asking ur bf/gf thoughts n feelings we sometimes decide o conclude that we knw wat they r thinkin o feeling based on their actions or too much of understanding each other?!Tis mostly can lead to negative thoughts to the mind-reader. But ppl do really have their own thoughts which we will never knw so do not being "ke-po" sayin u knw wat he/she is thinking lah! cos this can creates hostility n misunderstanding lah.
f)Forget to listen/Unwilling to listen
Some of us jz like to interupt o rehearse what they gonna say d next thgs o even roll their eyes while our partner r talking instead us really make an effort to truly listen n attempt to understand them. This can keep u from seeing their points n keeps ur partners wanting to see urs. So dun underestimate the importance of listening k!
g)Blaming each other
Most of us like to handle arguments by criticizing n blaming each other for the problems. Some of us can even shame them for being "at fault" instead of trying to see their problems as a chance to analyze the situation objectively n come up wit a solution to help both parties.
h)Wannabe Winner in an Argument
Thr is a saying winner is always the loser as whenever he/she wins it all but they will lose the most precious thg in d end. The point of a relationship discussion should be mutual understanding and coming to an agreement or resolution that respects everyone’s needs. If you’re making a case for how wrong the other person is, discounting their feelings, and staying stuck in your point of view, your focused in the wrong direction!
i)Pointing his/her character or attitude bad
Some of us like to take our partners negative action n explode it up into a personal flaw like saying our spouse being inconsiderate or lazy or if he/she likes to throw stuff around d house. This can create bad perceptions so learn to respect the person even if we dont like their character.
j)Avoiding issues
When one wanna share o discuss some issue between their relationship but other not willing to discuss this shows disrespect n in certain situations can lead to d underlying conflict to grow in which creates hard feeling and damages relationship so its much better to listen n discuss thgs in a respectful manner.

I have all this badddddddd manners whenever I have prob wit Ed but however I can never c it until when thr is ppl beside u attempting d same kind of attitude like this then will reflect urself bout how bad we r. Oh well, how i can survive my relationship is most probably becos oftolerance from d other party. So being tolerating is important.

Mistake we girls make with boys...

I have been thinking about ppl besides me with relationship n was thinking how to keep a man? Nah, I guess thr aint any actual manual book or rules to keep a man but I have thought of the 3 Deadly Mistakes We Gals make with Men without ever Realizing IT!

Mistake 1 - Leading a Man to think You are Needy and Insecure.
These signals men pick up on as "needy" and "unattractive".

1) Talking and saying nasty things about your ex-boyfriends.
We gals saying bad things about men will be involved with actually reflects negatively back to US. It makes the man we r dating presently worry you are carrying around "baggage" that HE will have to deal with should he become involved with you.

2) Bad-mouthing about other women.
When girls call other girls names like "slut", "bitch" or "crazy", it is anything but impressive to a man you are attracted. Girls will often do this when they see a good looking, desirable woman, especially if they feel their man will be attracted to her. This will just makes a man think you r trying to COVER UP your own INSECURITIES, and also looking for validation and attention which tis is not good k.

3)Too much of physical contact, esp in public
If you r persistently hanging on a man or touching him too much he'll start to see it as clingy behavior but you'll never hear bout this from him so it's far better to save all those touches of yours for short n infrequent moments which will surprise and enchant him though.

Mistake 2 - Appealing To His Sexual side Instead of his Emotional side
Many of us girls/women make the mistake of thinking that men are primarily driven by sex alone and also think if they can attract a man SEXUALLY they will be able to attract him EMOTIONALLY as well. So most girls often give up sex to a man in the hopes that it will translate into a relationship n get them wat they want but in reality a man has the capacity to view a sexual connection and an emotional as 2 whole diff things and it needs a special set of skills to mold these 2 thgs 2gether in a man's mind n keep them connected.
So,ladies out thr try to fufill a man EMOTIONALLY n SEXUALLY r able to captures a man's heart n get back d same fulfillment for urself.

Mistake 3 - Dunno how to SIZE up a Man's relationship potential.
A lot of us gals most of d time decide whether or not they shud put more effort into building a relationship with a man based on ATTRACTION.
Yesh, attraction is very important but it can also be DANGEROUS! This is becos when we feel a strong sense of attraction 4 someone, it can actually cause us to override our logic n ignore our own instincts which lead us to overlook potential's partner deadly wrongs that could spell trouble down the road jz like tat...So if u found urself stuck in a relationship tat is dragging u down this is d probably d answer..
Therefore, its important to b able to size a guy up n spot any "warning signs" of a future bad relationship. Must be FAST! so you wont waste any of ur time n emotional energy on some1 who is not rite for u o who will leave u suffer n heartbroken.

Sharing Ur Feelings?!

Everyone have a feeling. O some ppl called it as emotions. They r ppl feeling good,sad,happy,neutral n it goes on n on which depends on wat happen to their walks of life n oso sometimes ppl besides us can affect our feelings. So, they r ppl who jz like to express their feelin to others so easily n some like to write it down n it goes on n on again....

For me, the toughest thgs bout feelings is sharing them with others. But wat I know is sharing ur feelings of good o bad help us n also helps u to get closer to people u care about n who care bout u.


My way of sharing feeling is when I m in d right focus of my feelings o emotions. Its hard for me to tell my friends what's inside my backpack if me myself dunno wats thr inside me so i prefer it to figure it out myself b4 i tell them. So some ppl who r same as me they will choose make a list of their feeling in their head,writing it down o draw a picture to understand themself more. So I prefer writing it down n most of d time I need lonely time to figure out wat is bothering me then I mite b prepare to tell my friends bout it so I will be on track n have more information to give them instead of being confusing all d time n never hav d rite way to express d feelin in which aft tellin a fren him/she dun even get wat u r saying rite..n it leads them being helpless too..


I owes locked my feelings inside myself n this can even make me worse n oso will bring me to fall sick as well.

Besides understanding wat is inside u urself, I oso prefer to know who I can talk with n choose a right time n place as well.
Mayb ppl who r not really good at sharing their feelings r just shy bout wat they themselve r thinking n they feel ashamed to tell others wat they have been doing n end up shit for them. But thr is 1 feeling which every1 likes to share n tat is HAPPY feeling. The most hateful feeling to share is JEALOUS i guess. Too bad at most times I dun hav d feeling of jealous but only to certain ppl who treat me badly..darn it! keke!

As for teens which can affect their feelings r mostly about relationship n friendship n of sometime family lor...Relationship in which I mean love o "pak tor" lah will guess is d most complicated stuff in d world in which day by day wit step by step we all r learning how to keep the feeling beautifully. But when thr beautiful feeling between a couple then thr r owes taking for granted one n in which can hurt the opponent. As for friendships are often complicated as well in which sometimes they can change or affected by many thgs; growing aparts;developing new interests or friends may behave in a way that r upsetting n it can be hard to talk to them.

However, if thr is any bei song, unsatisfied o sad o happy o any feeling then try our very best to find a rite time,place n ppl to share it.
Now I m feeling ! My result is coming out soonnnnn...darn!

I m not over it yet......I need more I guess;P

CoOl o jz amused about this RWMF event?! HmM, previously b4 tis event there were everyone asking n talkin bout goin to this world famous event n ya..its held here in our very very hometown which all tiz while I never really like here though but sometimes sittin down alone to think y m I back here to Kch?! well, its not tat bad actually cos I realised tat thr r lotsa diff ppl in this lil city here.

Oh ya get back to d event...n now while surfing n peeping around others blog - bloggers started bloggin bout their RWMF xperience liaw. Is tat event tat famous? For my xperience, not bad lah. Thr will be my 2nd time-haha! so i guess its a real amusing world event tat can attract so many ppl from d world to be crowded at our small city here. N i guess tis event is d most success for d Visit M'sia 2007 gua as its a blast for their ticket selling. fu-yohh! mUst be earn a lot ler...hmm! Oh well in d end I guess accept for my group tat went thr wasnt really xcited bout d whole thg as Sophia was exhausted bout d whole rushing here n thr trip n makes her sick dy n Jass which is neutral all tis while n Norman which is still in his darn 9mths break-up depression mood! Duh him! As for me, hmm..ya I do miss it as I din really have enuff fun due to my tiredness n due to those 2 chicks who is xhausted till d nite came. :s sad sad me again but ya...thr r more to come so I guess I will be thr soon again to really enjoy myself wit flow of beer...! No Vodkha k peeps...gosh I feel like drinkin cough mixture lah tat nite. Hehe!

My late nite supper...-_-

Wow, its been almost a yr I didnt have any western food. My fav is Lamb chop!

Grilled Lamb Chop

Darn it! My last taste on lamb chop was last yr 31st of dec! Gosh! Anyway, having a late nite supper wit this dishes for sure will gain my weight again but who cares lah... Ed decides to spent me cos he owes dun have d time to bring me a proper dinner so all he can do is to bring me to a proper supper. Haha!

Cheers darl...

He will sure wann to see me get back to my 60kgs weight again huh! Nah! tomolo i will quit 2 meals so at least i can maintain! Hm..i took around 8mths plus to lose my damn 10kgs u knw! Hehe! Took tis supper at Cheers located at Rock road thr. Their lamb chop is not bad lah but i still prefer Richmond place tho' but Cheerz portion is a lot more. Anyway, their chickie chop taste nicer than Richmond but 2 bad I never ask 4 chicken chop. :) n its only rm8.90 n free a coke as well but i guess its for today only.

Chicken Chop

Check out at newspaper most of d time cos whenever thr r promotion for d day they will advertise in Borneo post. K i m now so full n feel quite bloated n same time i m sleepy but cant sleep yet. Darn! So jz drop by here to have a small post bout foods:P Sometimes I still prefer chinese foods...

While we 2 were enjoyin our supper here comes another companion who look hungry so I gave all my lamb bones for him n he ate it all....:))

Our very 1st time RWMF (13/07/07)

The Canadian Musician - Creator of RWMF - i guess so lah! hehe:z
Yo! Guess tis few days most of us r talkin o bz attending the RWMF (Rainforest World Musical Festival). Well, I attended the first day n it was my first time as well as for my chicks who have been wit me to the well-known event gathers world's musician at d cultural village of our hometown.

Phia&Jass in d car posin whn up up v go Damai

Jass&Norman(depressO) (whr is my PIC! darnn..i shud not be drivin so i can pose 2!)

Wat an experience wit lots of complaints bout car unable to drove up to Damai n need d guest to pay a RM5 shuttle bus from Santubong. So, one of us complains most n tat is Phia. She jz cant stop ranting on those STB staff. Haha! Jazz'z a bit neutral as she is not really tat excited like me. Well, I was excited at first but to hell wit those shuttle bus thgy n makin me to park d car at Santubong.

Darn it n we r not staying over cos its our last min plan bcos Sophia's able to chiao her time back to Kch d day b4 the RWMF starts n she needs to rush back to KL for her Emil Chow concert by yesterday. Wat an exhausting trip n plan:s!!! We were quite frustrated at tat moment as we bought lots of tit bits n oso we r carrying few bottles of drink n wat relief me was, Yesh our dude Norman join us for d trip though he quite spoil d mood as he is in depression mood aft his break-up so he jz help us to carry stuff. Duh! But howver his depression mood din spoil we 3 cos v r jz too bz lookin 4 frens who have stall thr to let us put down our stuff. So walkin here n thr till we met Billy at his Heineken stall so v juzt drop our stuff thr n start our day by walkin around d village to take some pics.

While at rumah Melanau...

Billy's Heineken booth!
Till the time around evening 6sth v few jz let us down to the greenery sites to wait for d musical nite to start. By d time we were relaxing on d grass we all r quite exhausted dy n v kinda run out of mood for d nite but then whn d musics come alive we do dance n have fun wit it till d 1st scottish group v 3 biatches r already in freakin tiredness. So v jz sat thr to look n listen to d music untill 11sth we jz went off from thr.... so it was quite an fucked up n exhausting day but d music is nice. Ya, thr will be a 2nd time for me if we plan it nicely n for god sake we must get a nite stay thr so we wont be tat rush.... as i m driving home myself k. hehe! mayb nx yr we ask James dy...he is d best driver n male companion for all our trips n funs ya...so we can jz drink till we get numb...haha;)

Shake ur bum bum~

So, however d feelin of those music is quite my taste but some r not. :D anyway at least tis yr get to go cos as a sarawakian if never go ahhh...aduh relli more like sua pa kia liaw lorr....kekee....

AuTOBoTs TRANSFORM! ek Ek!

OPTIMUS PRIME IN ACTION!Fav!!!
oOo! I love this scene...
SexY hOttiE Megan Fox in Transformer! *PhEwwWiTTt*

I m jz another halfly die hard fans of Transformer which I attended the movie yesterday. I can understand y tat movie is a blast for this 2 whole weeks. Yesh, its a total satisfaction aft watching it. Like it from d beginning till d end. So cool of d design n the transform part can look so real. All this while of anticipation is worth while n being squeezing wit ppl to catch tat movie is worthwhile too. I-chi ban ahhhh! Songz chin ah!

I like most is Optimus prime as for bumble bee is a very loyal guardian n wat a pity for Jazz who have been crashed into 2 parts (wat a beauty he is whn he is in d form of posh) *swt*. The others r jz special post gua. hehe! hnn...(smiling) still hav d feelin of satisfaction flowin inside me. keke! watching twice is not enuff i guess. Yea we will get bored one day but 4 d time being its so 10 out of 10 dy. So simple to describe tis movie jz like wat Sam Witwicky said "More than meets the eyes" wOooHoooO!

Hurrrrttttt

Y on earth do tis happen to a 3 yr old gal? Whr is d humanity? Whr is d kindness? Whr is d mother love of tat child? Whr is d benevolence?Whr is those kind-heartedness of that two adult? For a God damn sake, tat lil girl is jz 3 n she is so cute n how on earth can tat man have d heart to lay a hand on her???? After watchin d news really get into my nerve n i was dumbfounded at first as d feeling of living in diz world is scary n insecure. Is tiz call fate? NO, i dun think so...if its fate then tat lil one wont die in vicious way. Instead of killin her they even burnt her off n throw her leftover parts to 3 diff place?! So, is tat a HUMAN? scary! Cold-blooded monster. wat a gruesome manner?!
It really hurt to c sth like tat. A lil one who only knws how 2 eat sleep cry n smile n being sent to death in tis way is not fair! its totally unfair for her! so pain in d heart n wat else for d loved one of hers. doesnt her mum feel any pain o grief for tat lil angel? Its such a cruelty act n it happen so near to us! I jz hope her mum will regret for her whole life n tat man will get lots lots of punishment in diff situation till he got mental disorder. N let him live longer to suffer d guilt. death penalty is not enuff as its so easy for him to let it go cos a dead man can never feel o taste d pain but a lively man wit lots of guilt stayin in his heart will be mentally tortured. eeEe,*cursed*! Hopefully d DNA test is not tat lil angel as d result is not yet confirm. Not a sad story but a pain in d heart!

SmOking?!

I came home around 10 tis morning after puttin down Ed to work at town. I was stuck in front of tis freakin slow laptop for almost 4 hrs n i dunno wat d hell I was actually tryin to play wit it. Ya i was tryin 2 change a more cooler blog template but in d end I fucking give up cos I dun even knw wat d heck is HTML files. Gosh! Wat a PC dummie I am. Hm! One lame ass here. :D

While i was jz clickin here n thr I din even realised tat I have actually smoked off my whole pack of ciggie which is for ur info a new pack. N now I left 3 sticks only. Darn, wats wrong wit me. I told them I wanna quit but the whole fucking quitting thgs jz tensed me up n lead me to a point of smoking more. Impetiously, I jz let myself roll down from a cliff n hit hard at d bottom so it is killing myself slowly. Ya, ppl out thr who r not a smoker but intend to smoke i give u 1 word "DONT". I have been smoking for almost 8 yrs n I know my health situation is at wat point. Though is not in d end but imagine if i dun quit wat will happen in another 5 yrs? n I m jz 23 so kids out thr plssss love urself. Addiction is cruel. Esp if u have turn into a chain-smoker. For me girls boys r d same n today we have too much to face like air pollution n foods wit chemical to make them grow fast so u imagine we still take another drug in our body? so its a slow way of committing suicide.

I envy those non-smoker cos they have smoke smell free, no pain here n thr n sometimes they can jz sit at a non smoking zone for few hrs comfortably but me?? I cant even stand long in a exam board room. So can u imagine when my addiction came n i jz can 4get wat I wanna write for my paper? In d end one word "DOOM" See how pityful I m but I blame no 1 but myself. :s
Ya, I dun have d spirit to quit yet cos whenever I speak bout quittin it jz makes my body to crave for more nicotines. My mum n frens arent a smoker will jz say its all ur dumb excuse. So I wont xplain much cos thr r ppl out thr who smoke longer than me who success in smoke free. I try i will try! I do hate myself for smoking sometimes especially I m sick - haha! But whnever i m recover my craving come back jz in a midst. But for those non-smoker I jz wanna tell u guys wat I m goin tru everyday as a smoker....

10 simple annoying Symptoms:

1. Trembling hands (which i cant even get a good capture whnever I m holdin a camera - sucks?)

2. Empty-headed (total blank in muh mind sometimes)

3. Tends 2 forget thgs

4. Chest Pain

5. Thyroid probs

6. Bad skin (esp face)

7. Bad breathe (how can I kiss so often-duh!)

8. Stinky body

9. Yellow face

10. Headache all d time

I hate most is my trembling hands n my headache. :s so try not to smoke if can for those non-smoker yet. I admit tat I really regret for takin my first stick back thr.....

The 19 days of Cold war end TODAY! so sMiLez :D SharOon

HmM! Spent my whole day wit Jass. Hey Jass, u really got d dancing cells on ur body huh! hehe! 1 criticise- tat is u need more xpression. hehe! Oh ya tis blog is bout yea my mum tok wit me liaw, hm..is it becos of jz now u were here ?? *giggles* HmM! wonderin u r my lucky star huh...

K back back bout my blah blah family affair. One thg i m still sittin in front of my laptop tis late is bcos 2hr b4, I waasss actually chit chattin wit my mum. N at lastttttttt she starts talkin to me normally. WoOoh, me n mum din tok since my final exam started which is on d 22nd of last mth till now, till 2hr b4 now?? Yesh, before jz now since 22nd of last mth we have spoken for bout not even 20 words?? yea! tats me n my mummamia!
Surprisingly jz now she automatically speak so nicely to me. HmpH! At first I smell sth fishy but then I guess she can feel her mouth start to stink gua. For almost half a mth no talkin wit me. Haha! So I learnt to b more patience n oso not to be so emo if this thg happen on me again n again. Previously, if we happens to quarrel my mood sure swings hard but now I try my farking best to control n pretend nth happen n i wont pull a long face in front of her then I guess slowly she will cool down as well. Let it be..... n be more positive then thgs will jz go fine by the times come...
Duh ya? a mum n a dotter for almost 10 yrs never can get along? haha..wat a laff n wat else i m d only dotter. Well, superstitiously to say bout US is both our "ba zi" not "ngam" gua. keke! Ya i m metal n she is wood so i m harder than her! Duh, so silly rite? Huh~I never knw y we r like tat bt jz tat everytime both of us dun agree wit each other thoughts o even disagree wit wat we r doin then we can end up quarreling n our cold war will jz start at tat moment. 19 days r counted as short period liaw lor cos our longest time for not talkin wit each other can be a month o more. not a joke man! but now i can jz laff bout it ler...n i will owes says "duh". hmm...but however MUM, she is still my MUM so Let it be...
Hopefully there will always be a better tomorrow :). Yesh, I will try my darn best not to talk so much wit her so we wont have any chance to have conflict again :X.
keke! Silence is d best medicine but Silent killer can jz send me to death :s

Howevaaa - Mamá, todavía te amo!

;)*winKz woNkz*

Okayz at last done wit all these silly changing of blog thgy, ya i m sayin muhself silly. At least tis one is a lot better than d previous one cos can easily upload photos n oso easy steps to upload songs tat i like. Very leong leiii my song? wakaka...tis is me! Oh yea, so now n hopefully in future all my blah blah upz n downzie mood n some silly thoughts will be post here....

So thr is nth to up-date recently as I am so boring, damn boring all d time...till i m even so lazy to find some frens lah...the weather siaw siaw somemore. haihh! Up-date a bit bout Ed leaving Kch, well its not confirm yet as I have to wait till end of tis mth to get a more appropriate answer from him. But 1 thg i m very happy o could i jz say "phEw" (a relief state) aft wat he have told me d day be4 yesterday. He told me tat aft tis trip to KK, if d plan is not working out then he will guai guai stay back by my side till i graduate. n hopefully he take his wordd for it but if he prefer to go othr place again i will still of cos to c wats d plan n by tat time whther approve o not lor... of cos i wan you to change to a better job o get a better future but we muz plan it not perfectly but at least stable..rite? So, keep it up! Thr r ppl more cham than us k not only u but they still look for stability in life ya. hmm..at least can get some sleep aft wat he said to me n besides tat i m so happy tat he had thought bout wat I have told him for tis KK plan. n he do accept but jz he wans to go back to hear wat d real boss says bout d whole planning then he will make d final decision.

Besides ths, i found out though our relationship have been 4 yrs plus dy we r still in d midst of loving n care bout each other. N no matter how we used to quarrel n how we owes disagree to most point but we r to d state of tolerating each other n understand each other point of view. I m not d type of lovey dovey one but here i would like to tell u tat I appreciate U for being here by my side all d time I need you n being patience wit my emo n temper. mUahs mUahs lah! N n if Dear you do happens to click on my blog ahhhhh read thiz--> I WAN WATCH TRANSFORMER! GOSH! EDmuNd WonG, u promise ehhhh ahhh! where????? whennn???? hmph! mY patience got limit liaw ah! HmPh!

Killing Me Softly~

TadaaAa~!!!! PhewWw, a sudden disappeared from d cyber space for 5 days gua..hm ya ya i M back! Nothing up with tis few days but spend most of my time coping up the very hot drama series which is "heart of greed". One word 2 describe aft watching it "GREAT". Learn sth from tat series "family" very important. Oh well, its juz an entertainment of muh life for tiz few days...ya pia till ahh SHARON STUCK AT DA LIVIN ROOM FOR @ LEAST 10 hrs a day infront of d TV! silly n wat a potatoe couch I M! duh!

Othr than tat, my mind now is fill wit confusion n i got a feelin tat i m losing my track again.

4yrs relationship n he was owes beside me though sometimes he needs to go for outstation duty but tats only 4 a month o d longest period is 3 mths. But last 2 days he told me he wanna go back for good but still not confirm yet. N now o tis 2 days I jz can feel tat he is already leaving me step by step lor...but however lah if he is to get a better job back KK thr, i do support him. All i can do is weep from my heart n try to get back normal aft he leave. I shud not have say yes at 1st but now Words have spoken out cant be taken back lorr... Sienz! i keep on tellin myself tat ok not confirm yet so no need to worry lah but a thought of him leaving me all alone here -??-all i can think is who is gonna help me whn i have troubles? who is gonna laff wit my stupid joke? whn i m happy who i m gonna share?? ya now communication is so ez n somemore cheap oso ler but having d other part not by ur side is so diff eventho u can call him anytime n tats jz voice. Ya, hmmph...here come again another headache for me to go tru again. wtf! wo hao pu shi de ta ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Anyway o i can think now is, see how it goes lah by then...few more weeks i will get d exact confirm ans whether he will go back for good o stay back here wit me... d waiting is killin me oledi!! darn!

Damn d ciiggggieee price up up again! furk ler! makin me poorer n poorer again! darn it...

溏心風暴&天機算

溏心風暴

At last, I got my TVB drama series - Heart of Greed. At least last nite visit to Jalan Song to look for tis DVD din make me dissapointed. Before this I have bought it last month but it actually was not d full version but at tat time 1 disc RM1 only so nvm lah! Wat makes me so curious bout tis movie was at first James told me tat tis drama series syiok ah then make me sim gua gua wanna watch lor n then till Jass watch d whole thg liaw, she say nice ahh! so I have been waiting those chinese dvd sellers to bring d full version to KCH. The genre of this drama is modern drama n was created by Lau Kar Ho which was aired on 9th April tis yr.

REcently it was d highest rating of HK tvb drama series starred by few famous TVB actor n actress - firstly i would list my most favourite actor in TVB - Moses Chan, Raymond Lam n oso Bosco Wong - Ooo..my favourites! darn! I jz love to watch their drama! keke...Gues tis movie is jz about a very wealthy big family owning dry food biz n the owner have 2 wife n inside the family turns out to have jealousy among family members n hatred turns out between the whole big family n lead their family to break down.....then wat happen i dunno cos I haven watch yet.

天機算- Steven Ma(Left) Benny Chan(right) - 2 main casts n both in d movie born in d same yr,mth,day n time which have ddiff life n destiny n c how they play wit the destiny o another word r they able to change their destiny which is to change wat GOD have given them.. the old guy Yuen Wah who owns the "book of destiny"

However, till now I havent watch "heart of greed" even 1 episode yet cos I m stil watching another drama series named "A change of Destiny" n tis I left another 4 episodes today n in which I would finish it today if no one ask me out for a drinklah! hehe! This drama series at first was quite boring but the more u watch the more u r curious bout it so so far its still ok for me. The actor n actress are Steven Ma, Benny Chan, Shirley Yeung, Selena Li n of cos d senior of them Yuen Hua. The interesting part is when u watch till u realise they r 2 young men who have d same birth date,yr,mth n oso time but who have diff life which is 1 is very poor n 1 is bor.n in a golden lock family and both of them wanna change their destiny. Its quite interesting cos u will wanna knw how n wat their destiny have change them into. Will d poor one get rich n become boastful n will d rich one turns poor? N who have become d bad egg inside this drama - Steven Ma as Yun Hei o Benny Chan as Yip Yeong. Is destiny grow in our own pair of hand o is it all control by HIM (God). The genre of this drama is period drama series n very superstitious kind of drama. So check it out lah, have patience wit this movie at beginnin of few episodes as it is very funny, silly n boring of cos n d shockin part start around at episodes 11 which u would think tat some jz wanna be powerful they can even kill o sell their beloved one. So, those who r interested in drama series try get 1 of this too.

PS: Jass, can watch lah..not bad eh. Hehe! all about feng shui~ k lah i better stop here to continue my last 4 episodes.